I do just about everything half-assed. I take as many shortcuts as possible. I wait until the last minute to start things, and I study five minutes before the test.
I've always been this way, even in relationships. Although in my case they aren't really relationships, let's call it 'Friends-with-all-advantages'.
I want to have the boyfriend without the commitment. I want the romance, the spoiling, the sexual and emotional satisfaction that comes with having a man to lean on. But when it comes to being with just one man the longest I've ever stayed with him was 3 months. I always mess things up. I'm tired of being alone.
It's time I start respecting myself, no more sex outside of a relationship. I am starting anew with a partial celebacy. I'm going to analyze my relationship with men and pick apart my faults. I'm tired of being me, time to reshape my life. Starting now.
